The greatest gift that I can give myself is breaking myself out of the prison of victimhood. I have kept myself imprisoned there for so long. I want to live in the present, not the past.
The beginning of any journey starts with a question. I didn’t even know what my question was when I started. It all has to do with purpose.
Body shaming is hidden in jokes, memes, and people who ‘mean well.’ what is worse is that people share those jokes and memes about themselves. Those jokes are not funny.
When I internalized my abuse all of those years ago I didn’t realize how deep that would go. I know now that I have been continuing that abuse by gaslighting myself. I was keeping myself trapped.
There is a journey that I have to embark upon, one that I wasn’t even aware of. That journey is to learn to trust myself, to trust my body again after years of betrayal.
One of the wounds that I am trying to heal is one to myself. For years I internalized the abuse I endured growing up. As I work on those wounds, I realized how much I have been betraying myself.