I Wish You Hadn’t Stopped Drinking

I Wish You Hadn’t Stopped Drinking

“I wished you hadn’t quit drinking.” That was said to me the other day. I am not sure even what to write about it yet, but I feel that I must write something. Because for the sake of all the fucks out there in the world, are you fucking kidding me? Do I need to write...
Awareness Beyond A Month

Awareness Beyond A Month

Awareness? Really? Intellectually I understand the need to have awareness months. I like to see that having these months helps bring awareness to the general population. But then that voice inside that snickers sarcastically at the need for an awareness month on...
No Matter Where I Am

No Matter Where I Am

Changing Center What do I do when my world has changed? When that which was at the center is no longer there? And by the center, I mean denial of my wounds and addiction. For it was those things that were my center. My world revolved around them. Those things were...
Walking the Danube Promenade

Walking the Danube Promenade

Shoes Throughout Time I have been on a European riverboat cruise for the last two weeks, which is why I have not been posting. I had grand plans to get ahead of my writing and prepare posts while I was gone. Unfortunately, that plan did not work. In some ways, I am...
Stop Yessing All Over The Place

Stop Yessing All Over The Place

In my previous post, My Fawning Yes Brain, I realized that my brain is going through a trauma response called fawning. Fawning is the official term, but I am still calling it my “Yes Brain.” After discussing this with my therapist, specifically around my...
My Fawning “Yes Brain”

My Fawning “Yes Brain”

I have decided that I no longer want to worry about my anxiety and depression when I travel. Sounds great, right? It’s also a bit of a pipe dream in my healing journey. That doesn’t mean that I am not going to try. I am heading to Europe for a riverboat cruise in May....