Who, indeed? A Poem About Reaching Out

by | Apr 27, 2023 | It's Complex...PTSD | 0 comments

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Talk About Depression

talk about depressionWhy didn’t you call someone? That question, laced with desperation and concern, came after a bad weekend I had months ago. Right, because it’s so easy to talk about depression (and it isn’t only depression for me).

It sounds so easy, go through my contacts and identify the people I can call in those moments. So easy to figure out who can hold space for me in a moment.

Except it isn’t easy.

Being Honest

If it were easy, we would all talk about how we feel when someone asks. We would be honest about what was going on inside ourselves.

When was the last time you answered that question honestly when someone asked?

I don’t mean the random stranger at the store who asks you how they are doing, but a friend and confidant.

Whom would you call when the darkness comes in?

Who, indeed?

Call someone,

reach out to someone,

you say.


So simple. So easy

a thing to do. Just

go through the list

of whom to call, thumb through

my contacts, ponder each name,

each line,

ask myself


whom would I call?

To handle the grief, the inutterable

mostly undefinable darkness?


I can barely shoulder

the overpowering sorrow, the

weight crushes me.


Frozen, as I am, unable to choose.

My fingers hover over

names, so many names,

but none were selected.

My phone, then tucked

back in my pocket, a weighted lump, reminding me

I failed to find the answer to

that agonizing question,


I failed to burden others with

the unbearable weight of my being,

though I know it may lessen the pressure.

Who would help me carry this load?

Who, indeed?

Would you share this darkness with me,

the thing that even I don’t want to carry

throughout my life? 

The darkness that compresses me within


the pressure, the shift of gravity pressing me

closer to the earth

creating the unbearable weight of being


Call someone,

reach out to someone,

you say?

Yes. Of course.

I should.

But who?

Who, indeed?

talk about depression

Depression is an insidious mental health situation because it sneaks up on you. If you think you may have depression, please reach out to a therapist. 

I recommend Online-Therapy.*

Check Out My Other Writing

The Slow Descent to Sobriety

It’s Just One Night

You can also check out my recent poetry:

What Happened to All of My Words?

What Can I Do?

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